“Peace, peace, to the far and to the near....”
Those of you who know me and have followed me since 2007 when I began blogging online and vlogging on youtube, you know that I am a quirky girl. I put up blogs, websites and youtube channels only to yank them back down when I get “in a mood”. Or should I say, “out of the mood”? Probably I am, umm...what’s it called....a “crazy artist”? HIGHS and l...o...w...s, oivay!
So thanks to those of you who have not only put up with me since I last went offline in the fall of 2012, but also, I thank you for keeping in touch, sending me cards and gifts and yes, praying for me. I love you all! Especially my sons, who are grown men and who love and understand their Momma! My sons are my best friends in all the world and they are the reason that I am back in Florida, even though it took me a VERY LONG TIME to adjust to this place; having grown up and lived in San Diego County for my entire life prior to coming here in December 2008. I would also like to thank my ex-husband and the father of my children (to whom I was married to for 10 years, from the time I was 16 years old) for being graciously hospitable to me over the 2012/2013 Christmas/New Year holiday season, even though we do not see eye-to-eye on many things.
Now, while I may be a woman who admires virtue, wholesomeness, family relations and spiritually charged experiences, you also know that I am pretty open-minded when it comes to sexuality. Many of you have been past readers and viewers on former sexy blogs and sites of mine. More than a few of you have written to me and begged for me to re-publish former videos and my erotic writings. Last year I built a subscriber site—“Renaissance Lady”—only to lose steam later and take the site down. For whatever reason, I have NOT been blessed with a business-mindset. Trying to harness my sexual, creative power to put forward into a residual-income-generating business endeavor has always wound up blocking my flow. Go figure.
So, regarding those of you who keep in touch and are in my “inner circle” of friends and fans; those of you who have made an effort to keep in-touch and to be open and honest with me about who you are, as of yesterday (May 17th, 2013) I have picked back up my Sexy blog project on blogger. However, I have set that site to private; accessible only to the readers I choose, who will receive a password to log in and view my sexy content.
I am not intending to charge money for it because that would limit the readership to those who pay me, and seeing how I never have written any of my erotica, nor filmed my video logs with the prior intention of earning dollars from my art, I see that my best creative work is that which comes straight from my heart and soul. This has been the case since I was young and whenever I made something beautiful that I showed to my business-man Father.....he would say: “Wow, that’s beautiful, you could/should sell that”. And I remember always feeling the same two feelings when I’d get that response from him: At first I’d feel elation that my Dad was impressed with me/my creations, but when I’d imagine having to create things strictly for the purpose of selling them, suddenly I lost the urge to create. To me, that feeling is akin to having to fuck your spouse just because they are your legal partner, even though you no longer feel it. Yucky! It’s very difficult for me to force myself to do things that I don’t “feel” good doing!
NAVIGATING THIS BLOG
If you’ve landed on the home page of this blog, you will see my current stream of posts in the main body of this site, dating from now and on backwards to the date I began blogging the new, SOBER ME: "SHOSHI FREE".
The “pages” featured on this blog are there because they are the most prominent and meaningful to me. Pages differ from “posts”. Posts are where you find my “journal” entries in chronological order, because a blog is basically an online diary. If you are wanting to read through my posts from current and backwards, simply scroll down the home page and continue on and on and on. If you want to peruse a particular subject on a stream of thought in and amongst my posts, click on one of the frequently used tags in the tag cloud down below in this side bar. Or, use the pull-down category box. Of course you can always search for a particular, random word or topic in the search box above my Coat-of-Arms Gravatar at the top of this side bar.
Those of you who want access to my sexy blog on blogger, you need to email me. If you don’t know my email address by now, then you’re not someone I would approve for viewing. Sorry. No exceptions.
That’s it for now people.
MUAH
xoxox
Shoshi
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